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Dearest Blog ; Monday, December 14, 2009

After reading your blog.. I realise that it's all my fault.. Not listening to you.. Always making you unhappy.. Not able to give you happiness.. Before i went to bed.. I told myself to give up, to forget, to let go, not to look back..

Insomnia at 3am.. I wake up suddenly.. Feeling a sharp pain in my heart.. The same pain again every night Bella feel since the day Edward left her (New Moon)
You once ask this qns to yourself.. To follow your heart, or to follow your mind.. My mind tells me to let go.. But my heart.. My subconscious is still full of you.. I can't control..

I can't sleep until 6am.. Fall asleep.. Suddenly dream of you.. Then suddenly I can feel myself floating and flying in the room.. I tried hard to open my eyes, and shouted but i can't open, no voice came out.. I struggled hard for a few mins and i finally managed to wake up.. This is the process of falling into the *deep hole*.. Only u can understand wat i'm talking about.. 11771554

The last time i fall into the deep hole was couple of months ago.. Where i can feel and hear their breathing.. This time is i could feel i'm floating.. There's once a saying.. When someone is at the lowest point of his life.. *those sort of things will look for him* Perhaps i'm one step closer to the underworld?



♥信望爱♥

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